The rain...

The rain falls
he thunder rolls
the lightning flashes

So softly tickling my senses
dripping silently on the windowpane
such a quiet echo, the tears of heaven
falling on my skin
cooling my face
the world becomes clear as ice
looking up i see endless grey
the sight is beautiful
the smell is pure and fresh
the taste is wonderful and delicious
the feel is cold and clean
the sound is soothing and tranquil
washing me spotless of all fears, regrets, and sorrows

C

Paramore

so i know i'm probably a little behind the times...but...PARAMORE is an amazing band...and ALL of their songs are really really good...i'm thinking i want a cd of theirs....very amazing...go look em up!

uhhh....

i got a low C on chemistry...and i was a borders until 6 o' clock...
what a fun way to spend a birthday... i followed courtney around at the store buying gift for her friends until 7....i also did a crapload of chores when i got home...happy birthday to me...
C

almost over...

3 finals down....5 to go...i think i did good so far...now the hard ones

...gulp

here i sit...wonderig what to study...worried as all get out about finals. however, they will all be fairly simple. why am i so nervous? maybe it's because i have Bs in quite a few of my classes...going into a final with a B is not very wise...i have to work harder to keep that B a B....*sigh...i was never very good at studying...what to do...what to do...oh well...looks like i'm just gunna go in there with the best attitude i can...and hope to do well.....haha..wish me luck
of course all the hardest finals are on my birthday...sux...but it's better than what i did last year on my birthday: cavities being filled...that was deffinitely a not fun day...i'd rather take finals any day...so...i also have to babysit all weekend...funny how i'm always so busy around my birthday to do anything for me...i guess things just work like that
i'm blessed that, unlike my friend's brother, i do not have a fishhook in my eye for my birthday...deffinitely not a fun thing...and i thought i had it bad! (he's ok, if you were worried, he can still see....a miracle really)
anyway...that's about it for now...prayers for stupid little me please? that i remember whatever the heck is in my small little brain...and that i can get it out on papel (paper)
C

ah...haha...wait...16?!?!

so...this weekend...it's been interesting...starting more on Thursday though...i started to not feel well...headaches, runny nose, sneezing ect. and then at school the construction peoples were tarring...something i don't know what, but the smell was horrible in my chemistry class, so on top of everything...my headache got worse...i think i past out it was so bad...i don't remember anything from that class...bad huh?
friday was much the same...minus the intense headaches from tarring....and then i had to babysit that night...three rowdy girls to one of me...haha...fun...they cried at the smallest things and finally i made them go to bed...they were terrible! thanks goodness the family is moving to New York!
after spending most of saturday out and about checking out the new costco and smith's...(i so want to work at smith's it's way cool there! and i'm turing 16 soon anyway!) my mom and i went home and wrapped presents...which i guess my mom hates doing...she's strange...so we never finished wrapping everything, so i stayed up 'till 11 wrapping gifts...
went to church sunday...er...today...mighty cold at church...good services...i felt really convicted by Jordan's...which btw he's leaving us! so depressing! he's the best speaker at crave (not that i don't love jared, but i'm more ADD like jordan, so i follow him better) he's coming back in 2 years...by then i'm going to be graduating from high school! yikes!!! very scary thought...
anyway...the rest of today was devoted to a project fro english...which i am thankfully done with...
now i just have to deal with finals....and turning 16 in 4 days....ew...no fun...and i'm going to be so mad someone tries something on my birthday! i hate being in school on my b-day because people try to make it known...and i'd rather not be revealed...i feel old...that is all
C

quotes about life, love, and friends

"by plucking her petals you do not gather the beauty of a flower." ~ Rabindrath Tagore

That which is striking and beautiful is not always good, but that which is good is always beautiful. ~Ninon de L'Enclos

These violent delights have violent ends
And in their triumph die, like fire and powder,
Which, as they kiss, consume. The sweetest honey
Is loathsome in his own deliciousness
And in the taste confounds the appetite.
Therefore love moderately. Long love doth so.
Too swift arrives as tardy as too slow. ~Romeo and Juliet Act II Scene vi

Beauty... is the shadow of God on the universe. ~Gabriela Mistral

Beauty... when you look into a woman's eyes and see what is in her heart. ~Nate Dircks

No man can be called friendless who has God and the companionship of good books. ~Elizabeth Barrett Browning

A single rose can be my garden... a single friend, my world. ~Leo Buscaglia

Just some quotes i've discovered and love...let me know what you think.
my favorite is the first one, and the one from Romeo and Juliet...i love that play...
C

having a moment...

it's been one of those days...
walking around in a haze or a fog all day...too numb to care what's going on in the world...wouldn't it have been funny if i died? i wouldn't have even known, that's how completely spacey i was today...

*sigh...things like Christmas and my birthday coming up do this to me...well actually last year i was very crazy...i was excited to turn 15 for whatever reason...and now 16 is upon me, and i am wishing i was turning 10 or something...maybe it's all my stress

I've decided that if i ever got some kinda of tattoo i want it on the side of my face above my eye and traveling down my jawline...just some kinda of intricate design of elegant squiggles...
yes i'm a random...i want to be special though...stuff like that doesn't happen to people like me though...

so i really don't want to have a party for my birthday, but i promised a friend i was going to let him do something special...so i'm having a party...i just need to plan it...oh joy (very sarcasmic)
C

Beautiful

As I look into the stars
Pondering how far away they are
How You hold them in Your hands
And still You know they're small
You know my inner most being, oh
Even better than I know, than I know myself
What a beautiful God
What a beautiful God
And what am I, that I might be called Your child
What am I, what am I
That You might know me, my King
What am I, what am I, what am I
As I look off into the distance
Watching the sun roll on by
Beautiful colors all around me, oh
Painted all over the sky
The same hands that created all of this
They created you and I
What a beautiful God
What a beautiful God
And what am I, that I might be called Your child
What am I, what am I
That You might know me, my King
What am I, what am I
That You might die, that I might live
What am I, what am I, what am I, what am I
What am I
What am I
What am I
What am I
What am I

This song my Shawn McDonald really touched me...i actually don't know why...but wow...it's an amzing song...random i know...but worth listening to if you can

life...it's kinda sucky

so my life is kinda....well sucky right now...
sunday was bad...i was supposed to go to this concert...and it was totally cancled...pretty upsetting i tell you what! and church was rather boring...i didn't really get a whole lot out of it...we also played a Bon Jovi song...really random...and not very icy...maybe it didn't makes much sense to me because i was up till about 1 the night before...i don't know for sure...
today was pretty stressful too...my mom comes in at like 5:30 and tells me to wake up...i, not having any idea what time it is really, grumble and get out of bed and get dressed and all that crap...it only takes me about 15 minutes to get ready in the morning...so i was up and waiting to leave...when i noticed that it was 6-frickin-o clock in the morning...my momther failed to tell me that we were waking up really early that morning because she had to be at work at like 7...
it's really cold outside at about 6 in the morning...and i'm not wearing a whole lot...just a sweater and junk...anyway...she dropped us off at Starbucks...and bought us large white chocolate mocas...but ti's stilla long cold walk from Starbucks to Cibola...
in Algebra II we were doing quadratic equation...easiest crap you will ever do in math i swear...and NO ONE in my class got it...i've been doing that stuff sinse 8th grade and i was really frustrated with my retarded class.
then my com skills teacher is making us write an essay on a stereotype that is due...uhh wednesday...thanks mrs. marshall
and during lunch i realized that i have a history project...so i went to wokr on that...then Abby decided she didn't want to be in school anymore...so she ditched and left me in Spanish all alone...and we had a sub...lame
then after school...there was no bus to pick us up...by this point it's pouring outside...and i'mn soaked from jumping in puddles all day (the only good part of my day) so i'm freezing...then finally Court flagged down a freind and he gave us a ride home...pretty much that was my day...it sucked...now i'm stuck inside fretting about finals and projects and homework
isn't it fun to be me?
C

i'm a writer...?

haha...i guess i kinda am...i wrote a song...some of you peeps have seen it...some of you have not...i thought i'd share since i haven't posted anything remotely interesting in a while...you guys can laugh at my lack of writing skills! yay!
it doesn't have a name yet...got any ideas?

Please don't speak...
You've done enough damage
body language speaks louder than words
the unspoken whispers tell me
"Stay away. I am not your friend."
I hurt you and i'm sorry
words cannot express
the pain i feel in mine
for breaking your heart
contradicting words and movements tell the truth.

Please don't speak...
Your dagger sunk deep
into my heart
sweet dagger in my chest
my mind grows weak
my heart grows weaker
made of stone and ice
the prick of your lovely knife
it shatters my cold heart
pieces of me lay in a pile at your feet

but please don't speak...
your deed caused my demise
leave those pieces
i want a new hero
one who will love my brokenness
he'll never, my black knight
no one will put me together
scattered pieces of me will lay in a heap forever
but your scarlet hands don't care
the sweet dagger loves me more than you ever did...

tell me what you think! and help me come up with a catchy name!
C

have you ever noticed...?

that when i post blogs about music...no one comments? how lame are my friends! lol...kidding i love you all...but you need to get more into music! haha...no nasties please.
C

Punk The Halls '07

Grace outreach center, last night...for bands, $15....can't go wrong with that!!!
Our Heart's Hero
Eleventyseven
Nevertheless
Stellar Kart

the most amazing cancert i have ever been to!!!!! Jasmyne invited me to go and i said i would! so when we got there, only about 60 people were at the concert...which you may think is lame, but it's actually totally awesome!
the first band was Our heart's Hero...they rock...and they all were dressed the same! it was hardcore! they were all wearing balck shirts and jeans, with white ties and belts and converse! it was awesome
the next band was Eleventyseven...and they were the best band there by far! if you don't know their music...go look it up on myspace! they are sooo amazing and they rcok my face off! they all came out wearing little elve things and white beards and crazy glasses! and the bass player was amazing! he jumped around and danced and gave me his pick and it was the best! that band is just the best band in the world...and they are the nicest people to talk to! (this is the reason that having only 60some people there is awesome) jasmyne and i hung out with the guys for a really long time! and we goofed off with them and teased and it was way chill!

actually...that was the best part of the concert! haha...nevertheless was still good, and so was stellar kart (however, i've decided that stellar kart needs new sound people, because i've seen them 3 times, and you can never here the singing...) but jas and i went for eleventyseven...so yeah that was the best concert i have ever been to and i have awesome pics on my phone...

side note: i want eleventyseven cds for christmas :D
C