hold my last breath

hold on to me love
you know i can't stay long
all i wanted to say was i love you and i'm not afraid
can you hear me?
can you feel me in your arms?

holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light
it ends here tonight

I'll miss the winter
a world of fragile things
look for me in the white forest
hiding in a hollow tree
(come find me)

i know you hear me
i can taste it in your tears

closing you eyes to disappear
you pray your dreams will leave you here
but still you wake and know the truth
no one's there

say goodnight
don't be afraid
calling me calling me as you fade to black

courage

GOD ruined me tonight
he made me realize things
like i need to put it all in his hands
like i need to have courage to love me for me
i need to have courage to share HIS story

i also need to give things up
like him
like time
like myself

i miss Him and i miss the me in him
this new me?
she's...not who i really am
the fire in my heart is so small it might be snuffed out
and i don't want that at all
i want to be free and joyful in this suffering

spilt milk

i'm over-reacting to a..."crush"
haha. i'm not amused
only confused
some girl he had...or still has...
a crush on rejected and denied.
hmm...but now they won't talk
and i guess its awkward for the other people.
so he's trying to mend things,
by saying that she takes away his confidence?
too freaking bad he didn't say that in the first place!!

so today...i wept over spilled milk
waste of my time

feeling what it's like to get your heart riped out.
hot tears stain my face
i wish i didn't care this much
i wish i could say that i'm ok
but i'm not.
i'm heartbroken
i'd like to find a hole and hide there
i'm so stupid!