the only way to go

dude...i love my church! haha...second saturday is awesome...i love to serve people because it's what GOD wants us to do! today we went to Galloping Grace Horse Ranch (maybe that's the name...i hope it is) and helped them out...i piled hay and tarred some posts....good times....'cept for the thousands of tiny, and painful scratches from the hay....and the rubbing my skin raw trying to get tar off myself...but i'm not complaining at all...it was well worth it to see so many smiling people!
i don't really have a lot so say....i met a bunch of really chill people....and we had good times....i made fun of Pokey....so my day was awesome
then i hung out with my dad the rest of the day....and went to church at like 2...and hung out with Pkey and the rest of the sound/worship team until i went to work with the little 2nd graders...haha....good times tooo.....anyway....that's all for now
C.

so sad i want to cry...but can't

My friend from school...many may know her, Abby, is moving back to England! i mean...i seriously don't know what i'm going to do without her! well i know i'm going to be failing chemistry without her, becuase she has a knack for not paying any attention at all to what is going on...yet knowing what we are going to do next. a talent i'm no bueno at...today was my first "B" day without her...i have like 2 classes with her this day...and my day was very sad, and boring...i almost cried! i guess i just don't deal very well with not having someone i like in my classes...i'm normally a very shy person until you get to know me, and Abby brings me out of my shell....but as of Saturday...she will no longer be here to bring me out of my shell...i'm going to miss her something aweful...and school will never ever be the same without her...
tonight was my last night with her, and so jordan, she, and i went out to Olive Garden, and i treated...then we walked (seeing as how none of us can drive) over to Coldstone, and Jordan bought ice cream...i feel like a fatty cakes! we then went over to Barnes & Noble and walked around eating and talking...ugh....i just don't know how i am going to survive without her!
anyway....that's my little taste of sadness....goodnight all

C.

i love....

i love GOD
i love books
i love truth
i love sea

i love rock and roll
i love rain
i love blue
i love tea

i love chocolate
i love earings
i love shoes
i love keys

i love flowers
i love sky
i love water
i love jeans

i love pictures
i love horses
i love guitar
i love trees

i love Him
i love them
i love you
i love me

C

"You buy me beer, I make you sushi!"

ah, the words of a cute little Japanese man who works at the sushi bar at Smith's...if you didn't know this, my mother and I just adore sushi! and so we go to the very convenient new Smith's just up the road from us and buy sushi, all the frickin time!
today we stopped and got some, and my mom says
"I was looking online, and sushi is ridiculously hard to make!"

the little Japanese man behind the counter comes out and goes, "Yes, Yes," (in a very thick accent) "sushi very hard to make!"

a few minutes later, we are still taking and my mom says,
"do you think you could show me how to make it?" she was only kidding, because that's how she is, but his reaction was very serious:
"you buy me beer. I make you sushi! I off work on Sunday and Monday!"

haha! don't you just love the little Japanese men behind the sushi counters? I know I do, they are too cute...my mom is gunna call him when her best friend moves back, and he's going to come over and make sushi for them....if they buy him beer of course!

C

Kite...

I hid myself from failure and fear
O my dear you're a threat to the bad in us all
They tell themselves that each word from your lips
Or the grace in your eyes overcomes any fall

Over the twilight you're listening for me
Darling, go to sleep
Cradled by moonlight, I'm dreaming we'll be
Loved so deepFloating and fighting, like a kite on a string
Till you cut through my tether and changed everything
From the sky you looked small, but I loved you the same
So I darted back quickly to spell out your name
And when they say that I'm just a terrible kite
You'll tell them you're proud of my marvelous flight

Don't hide yourself inside till I'm old
O my dear you're a threat to the bad we all see
I'm beside myself for the touch of your lips
Or the grace of your eyes that can see good in me

Over the twilight you're listening for me
Darling, go to sleep
Cradled by moonlight, I'm dreaming we'll be
Loved so deep

Floating and fighting, like a kite on a string
Till you cut through my tether and changed everything
From the sky you looked small, but I loved you the same
So I darted back quickly to spell out your name
And when they say that I'm just a terrible kite
You'll tell them you're proud of my marvelous flight

~Copeland

a normal post

this is my first 'normal post in a long time i noticed...well, it's not about songs i've writen, or heard and whatnot...hmmm...so tonight we went to blades, at about 10...pm and stayed till 1...am...so i am very tired. we took jared and marissa with us, and yeah...
so i stole one of my friends hats, and he failed to get it back from me, therefor, i have his hat still...in fact it's still on my head! haha...seeing as how it is ummm...2 in in the morning, i'm going to hurry and wrap this up...
tonight was fun, ice skating, pictures...and dodging balls...very exciting fun...'cept for the fact that both my 'rents were there...ha..ha ha...not so fun, thankfully i avoided them most of the night...
and that's all folks...
peace out
C

alone

intimacy...
do i want that?
being so close to someone
to be vulnerable
to be open
to be dependant
my hopes, my fears, my secrets
my deepest thoughts
known by someone else...
who am i to trust him?
to give him...me?
i can't afford to do that
God may have been wrong about me
solitude is what i want
why should someone other than HIM complete me?
that guy isn't out there
i'm fine with that reality
i don't want to reveal those hopes...
those fears...
those secrets...
my deepest thoughts are mine
mine alone
ALONE

C