oh how i would love to write something poetic and powerful
but alas, i have no poetic thoughts
only these uncontrollable emotions
pulsing through me with every beat of my heart

i wish i was...in love
yet not, because love is difficult
and every 'love' i've experienced so far breaks me
breaks me in such a way that i do not wish to go through it again

this concept of love is an interesting one
giving up everything to be with another?
turning from our selfish ways
to sacrifice everything in our lives for another
but GOD did it didn't he?
oh, how he loves us
i do not know

i've been thinking too much about life and death
the inevitability of it
lately death and life get so confusing
i can't tell the difference here tonight
lately every breath feels like i'm kissing death

so maybe i was a bit more poetic than i thought i would be tonight.
things just flow sometimes,
tonight is rough, not as 'flowing' as other...poetry, if that's what you could call it.
which i wouldn't, but whatever

goodnight all