i'm so tired of being alive
feeling depressed
trying to just survive
someone save me
from this mad world
so tired i could cry
i know i shouldn't
so alone no one would care
she doesn't trust me
but i guess no one could
it would be nice to fall asleep
and never wake up
why is it so hard?
if there were a plan
i might be able to follow
instead i wallow in misery
wishing i wasn't here
hoping something will happen
to get me out
and rid the world
of this emty soul

bored at work

i think ill blog about college instead of studying for math :)
i hate math 121, my teacher is the stupidest old man ever, he refuses to teach/help us learn because he thinks we should teach each other. what a laugh.
psych 260 is amazing love that class much more fun with jessica in it
i don't feel like writing about the others, to insignificant haha

just went to Disneyland! AMAZING! loved it! Aladdin was the best musical play ever! i want to see it every day and i miss the food! haha Bengal bbq and pacific wharf cafe! my mouth is watering just thinking about it! mmm and cream cheese pretzels! yum yum :)
the rides were amazing and so was fantasmic! i'm sad that Ariel was not pretty though Belle was absolutely gorgeous so that made up for it a little haha.

the mall is playing good music and i've been listening to the Beatles and Selena Gomez! she makes me jealous, she is sooo pretty and skinny haha and tan.

wish i was still poetic-ish because my blogs were more interesting but oh well haha

OMG

so i just spent the last half hour rifling through all my old blogs and it is interesting to see the changes i have undergone throughout my life. it brought back memories that i never thought i would remember, and gave me insight into the way i have changed. anyway I'm thankful that i have "cataloged" my life in this way and sad that i gave up for a while. it's nice to remember things every now and again and reflect on ones' self.

BTW, i have just adopted the most adorable kitten. I'm writing this so i remember how adorable he was ha ha. his name is sokha (after the funny dude in that old show Avatar) and i hope to bring him home soon :)

also, Jessica and i watched ducks yesterday at the duck pond for class. they are interesting creatures, but i would not want to talk our teacher's gorilla observing class thing. she is obnoxious.

i think that's it for now
C

fun on the bus

go to funonthebus.blogspot.com for adventures to and froom UNM with Jessica and I!

really it's hilarious.

and i supose i should start poster here as well. seeing as how i'm in college now and not depressed haha