the real you

i know now that it could have never been.
blinded by...now i don't even know what.
i thought he was it
i had to take the time to know him, to really know him
oh, how wrong i was
how could i have been so blind?
he's clearly not the one i thought he was
i feel like a blind fool
how can one be with someone...if he can't even stop
stop and say something nice
stop being a sexist pig
and really look at me
i get that i'm not pretty
i'm 'one of the guys'
you want to know how i feel now?
i hate him
i loath him
what a fool am i!
for believing he was it
i thought he loved HIM
and he doesn't
he loves SIN
he hates kindness
being around him makes me sick
he pushed me over the edge
the incencitive prat!
i hate crying over him
dirt beneath my feet!
not worth my time
i was wrong about that guy
he doesn't love GOD
he doesn't love me(i already knew that)
how could i have thought something would happen?
i tried to give him my heart
to show him who i was
he tore it out of my hands
he just stared
then he threw it away
and without looking back
he left...
i've always been alone
i bettter face that facts
it's going to be like that always
i've given up
on love?
on everything.