courage

GOD ruined me tonight
he made me realize things
like i need to put it all in his hands
like i need to have courage to love me for me
i need to have courage to share HIS story

i also need to give things up
like him
like time
like myself

i miss Him and i miss the me in him
this new me?
she's...not who i really am
the fire in my heart is so small it might be snuffed out
and i don't want that at all
i want to be free and joyful in this suffering